Sickened

Disappointment
after
disappointment
burdened my heart

Struggling
not just without any support
not only with harsh criticism
not only with snickering
humiliation
insult
anger

But also sabotage
slander
attack

However hard I tried
however hard I struggle
however hard I pray
however hard...

Disheartened
beaten

Slowly
gnaw on
my head
body
soul

I hate them so much
I pray for them
to be burn in hell
forever
slowly
painfully

No mercy
to be trade
for
God’s forgiveness

Hate them so much
I am willing
to be burn
in the hell forever