26 August 2010

What I feel today, tonight, right now
restless, mix feeling

one of many those empty feeling nights
repeat again
out of control

Feel of unsatisfaction fills my heart
only a little speech
only a little act
wither me

I need to write to understand my feeling more
I need to write to understand myself more

I need to write to let out a lot of emotions
that I am not familiar with
to express
to simply recognize
what is this emotion called
that's for me are
beyond definition

I need to write
because on top of everything, dear to me
It helps me going through
this life

I need to write to allow myself to grieve
I need to write to liberated myself
I need to write to know what I actually feel

I need to write because so many things burdened
weighing my hearts,
I will cry and never stop
If I am not writing

I will lost without writing....

+depth+

You Have A Nice Smile...

She laughs so much
it contagious
She laughs so much
it cracked her face
People smile looking at her smile, not knowing
Tears she swallows every time she laughs

She laughs so much
To forget that how
Every morning she’s awake
She wants to die

She laughs so much
In mornings she’s feeling nothing
Because in the end of the day
She wants to kill herself

She laughs so much
Because if she stops
She will cry
Not able to stop forever

She laughs so much
If she’s a man people will hit him
It’s lucky she is a woman
they only think she’s a lunatic

Darling,
When will you be able 
Stop that laughing
you don’t need to rehearse anymore
it only hurting yourself more