I am one amongst many other choices in your life
and I am at the bottom of it.
I
thought it’s only that my love is greater than your love to me
but I learnt
that my love and trust for you are not the one you want.
Not because
we have been so many times together you can say anything to me
so you can do
anything to me
But
because in your eyes
I am worthless.
I am worthless.
I am always there
so I am a substitute.
I am
always the one reaching you because
I am not
in your world.
For the
words that slipped through your mouth are always blame
for your words and acts get worst the more I spend time with you
for you turn to me only when you need to let out the darkest side of you
that you don’t want those dears for you to see
for I hold importance in you only in the time you need help
for you only squeeze me, even more, think that’s kindness
for you get farther than your true self
for your blank expression every time people who still care for you
tried to tell you the truth
for the same reason you saw in others are weaknesses that make you mocking and
faulting them
are your misery….
for your words and acts get worst the more I spend time with you
for you turn to me only when you need to let out the darkest side of you
that you don’t want those dears for you to see
for I hold importance in you only in the time you need help
for you only squeeze me, even more, think that’s kindness
for you get farther than your true self
for your blank expression every time people who still care for you
tried to tell you the truth
for the same reason you saw in others are weaknesses that make you mocking and
faulting them
are your misery….
For
your lips never speak
good words when you
talk to me
I need
to silence it immortally.
For
your eyes never see anything good about me
I need
to shut it eternally.
For
your existence days after days make me suffer
I need
to detach it.
Though
your beauty mesmerize me
I have
to scatter it.
Though
my love for you is infinite
I am diminishing
you.
As I let you go
in my world you are a non-existent.
